Getting Back to Work

Tonight, I teach my first class of the semester. I am tired and fairly disheveled, but I am excited to be there: after all, teaching has been the most rewarding thing I have done up to parenting. I decided not to subject my students to a slideshow of Madelene. That would probably just be weird……
Read more

Baby Wrangling

This morning, I successfully clipped Madelene’s nails for the first time. Those of you unfamiliar with children will surely not think much of this, but it is in fact a big deal. Imagine taking anything remotely sharp near the tiniest little delicate hands you know. Then try trimming them while the owner of said hands fights you…
Read more

Adopting My Darling

I am in the process of adopting Madelene; I can’t wait until it’s official. Jen and I have filled out forms, collected reference letters, paid fees and generally hustled in order to make this happen as soon as possible. Now, before you think this is all due to the fact that we are a lesbian…
Read more

Overwhelmed but Rallying

How do people have lives and raise children and work? I am burning to know the answer(s) to that right now; I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed or something. Everything seems overdue, hard, and generally out of my league. The baby, of course, has done nothing to spur this feeling: she…
Read more

Getting off my Momma Butt

First of all, your touch of cute: Now, what’s on my mind: I tried to experience Jen’s pregnancy as fully as possible: I went to as many of the doctor’s appointments as possible, I empathized with each physical transformation, and most of all, I ate everything she craved and then some. Over all, I gained…
Read more

Getting the Baby Out of the House

12:25pm: Jen and I took Madelene to the park today–she slept the whole time, but the fresh air is bound to have done her good. We’ve been holed up in the house too much, it isn’t healthy! I have to admit, going outside still freaks me out: I get paranoid about all that could happen…
Read more

Colic is Mine Enemy

Madelene has been fussing a bit more than normal the last few days–at some moments, she reaches a hysterical crescendo, just squalling her little head off. I feel so helpless, Jen too: we were in despair last night until we realized M liked to be held while we do deep knee bends. Really deep knee bends….
Read more

Wearing My Baby

I’ve been working a little with Madelene strapped to me in a sling and it is wonderful. I love it, even though it is massively distracting–I just want to keep reaching down and holding her. Everything is so different with her around, so much less important that it all seemed a month or more ago… I can’t believe how…
Read more

Not Our Little Little Little Girl Anymore

This morning, Jen got to see Madelene’s first real smile. I am desperate to see the next one, so of course M is stoic as a stone. It’s odd, how she already behaves differently for each of us. For me, she goes to sleep readily and poops like a champ (I know, I know, TMI….
Read more

Nugget of Great Worth

I don’t believe in just telling a child that he or she is cute, or beautiful, or handsome. Of course he or she is and it must be acknowledged, but there is so much more about them that should be brought to their attention. I have decided that my nickname for Madelene will be Nugget…
Read more